All that matters is....

Can you see? Can you see the pain in the eyes, and know how much i tried. Loving you is painful to me, but i still love you. Look at how i would scream for you, how i would bleed for you.

I'm smiling on the outside, sure.
But i'm ripped inside.
Always wanting things that i will never get.
But, do you know how that feels?
I told myself, just give up.
But i couldn't do so.
Dont continue loving someone who does not have feelings for you at all anymore.
But how would i know?
There were no signs.
This is love.

Maybe there were...
Just faint visions of possibilities...
But never one in front of me.
Never one for me to hold.

I want you.
I want you so much.
But i'm being selfish.
You've got to go..
I really miss you...
And if you ever need me, i WILL be there.

i'm always here...

don't forget me... okay?

and maybe one day, just one day, i will get messages like ' good morning hubby ' again..




- i'm still waiting...



like i said, deep down inside my heart, it is still you. I love you for a contract period of forever with no clauses to it. Deep down inside my heart, i know it is you. My messages might be just too late now, but at least you get to see it. You know.. Then that's all that matters...




- I love you .





- and i still do....