sarcastic remarks are bound to be, right? I'm sure whats going on in the camp.
Before, it was you told me he liked V and he got rejected, right? so how can it be that he has never liked her before..? i mean, ya. yes, i am in no position to comment, but I'm sure you do know. Before you have seen the good ones i put up, you have already seen the bad ones, though there was only 1. it's not your fault
that you are not seeing.
Secondly, to the rumors, i was told and i did not make up stories myself. i am not there, so how can i make such wild guesses, right? And when you said no that night, i was told by B you liked him. i mean, you should know how i felt because you knew all along that i would be afraid that this would happen, right?
If you noticed, i have been holding back my crude and sarcastic comments, at least to the public. Things have already come to this stage, well...
The best part was, '' You said you love her right ? Then why are you spreading rumors about her ? You expect her to come back to you ? '' .
( i will remember this, even as i am wheeled into my op )
I do not want to post anything ugly with my days numbered, at least for now.
''A man is someone who stands against the odds and not follow the direction of the wind. When all the skies and mountains fall, it is the man that will stand tall''. That's what a man is. '' Rejected, stand up again, remember? '' . This is what a man is, by right.
But that is not the point anymore....
I'm rather sure you will come to read this... just, when.
Should i survive, I will be back, to carry out my promises, to sing those 2 songs, '' the greatest thing in all my life is loving you '' and '' Cheryl, i give you my heart '' . I will dedicate these 2 songs to you. I wanted to sing to you that day, but you said you could not.. Should i survive, it shall be God's will that i will never give up on you. '' If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.'' remember ?
Should i not survive, i hope you will remember how much i loved you. I'll be watching you from where i am, and yes, I wont get the bowl of tangyuan anymore, though i always wanted it. Just remember, how much i loved you. Remember how we first met, the first night of the growth camp, the place where i first pecked you, the place where i first held your hands, the place where i first hugged you, remember everything that we have been through, the highs and lows.. All these will be kept deep down inside my heart, and i just want to tell you that, no matter where you are, my heart will always be there with you, be it dead or alive.
I'll be contented to (not) survive loving you.
I have lived to not regret being with you, i will always be happy that you and i met. I will leave with no regrets being with you too, leave with my chins held up high, that i tried very hard to win you back, there will be no regrets left. Sometimes it's hard to just say i love you. Should i not survive, i want my wallet beside me even when i live till my last breath, because it was the first present you gave to me. it means more than the world to me.
Special thanks to Benedick bro, Yvonne, Kasthuri, LeeQing, Ken Lim, Minfeng, all fifa online 2 players who gave me the courage to try and win her back, and all other friends ( just too many ) . They helped me when i needed help most.. most credits go to Ken Lim, who calmed me down. Benedick too. Everyone tells me just to give up, but I'm just stubborn enough.
Let fate decide whether i shall give it up or not by 2 methods.
1) Survive and never give up, no matter what is ahead of me.
2) Not Survive but i did not gave up and without regrets loving her.
By the time you see this, i might have already been wheeled in.
Remember : I have never regretted loving you, and i will be contented loving you. I have never regretted being with you, and i will never regret being with you. I was happy with you, and i will leave here happy too. My last regrets are only: not telling you how much you have done for me, those little things you have always been wanting to hear.. I'll always be watching you from up above, no matter where I am, looking over you. And if you see a meteor flying over, you'll know, that is me still loving you and watching over you. My love for you never dies. I live to love you, and i ____ to love you too.
I bleed black and red for Cheryl Ng. Do you ?
Just to say, you know my fifa standards. i wont lose those kind of matches, as im leading 2-0, 3-0. but just want to let you know that, you have the ability to make my highs higher, and my lows lower. I used to say fifa will help, but how very wrong i was! it is proved to be, wrong.
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