It's the 2nd on wednesday....

Time flies, and Wednesday marks the 26th month from when we first started out, the 791st day from 2nd October 2007, the 1,064th day since i first saw you, and liked you right from the start...

''Relationships are like glasses. If they break, let them stay broken, you'll only hurt yourself trying to put them back in place. At least the pieces still remain.''
I have tried to put the broken pieces back into place, back to the original one again, but i ended up getting hurt each time.. Yes, the memories remain, but surely there is more than i can give to my childhood sweetheart. I want people to say, '' Joshua is engaged to his childhood sweetheart '' come 10years time.. So even if how i end up being hurt, i will never give up on my childhood sweetheart - ahem , you know who.

Perhaps, i will never get messages like this anymore, '' Happy 26th month anniversary Cheryl Ng's hubby ! '' and the good morning, and good night messages.. Oh, how i miss them so much..

It's been a torrid time i've been through, and now i guess i finally know how it feels to be in your shoes... I guess i know how you felt.. Yes, i am feeling everything now, everything crashed at me in that split moment, i know how it feels now.. But being hurt for you, i think it's worth it.. To do anything for you; even at the cost of my life for you is worth it...

We used to quarrel just before 2nd of the start of each month, somehow things will get better, and somehow the date 2 means alot to both of us.. But, it has been different ever since...

I asked for another chance, unaware of how you feel for me last month, and when you said no, my mind just went point-blank.. It is because i was afraid of losing you right from the start, that i kept pressuring you for an answer, which is why things turned out this way.. I mean, from the start, i didn't want to lose you at all. I was afraid, so i kept trying and trying hoping you would say yes, but in the end, i made things worse..

It take courage to tell someone you love her, and even more courage to pluck your courage to express your love for someone, just like how i first asked you on that magical night.. That very special night...

I know all i can do is just to dream. Dream what? I rather not go to sleep, all i do is think about you.. When i wake up, it's not real and i get very very disappointed and i cry to myself, many times...

We've come a long way, been through so much.. You were always there for me, everywhere i went, and suddenly, you are not within my reach anymore~
But, '' Through everywhere, no matter where you are, i will find you. I will heal all the ruins left inside you. As long as i'm breathing, i will. ''

You once said to me, '' Let us try again ? ''
I want to try again.. but i dare not ask you again, the consequences will be even bigger. you would be angry with me yet again...

''Let ask try again?'' I will say... We will shine, shine like the stars above, shining in the light, guided by our love.. Let our fire burn in us, burning like the sun, as we show our everlasting love to everyone.. Easy to say...

I know i wasn't there enough for you, the way you wanted me too.. But i'm going to change all these. I'm staying put right here no matter what you say to me, to show you ALL the promises i made.

anh yeu em Cheryl Ng Li Jia ..









anh yeu em Cheryl Ng Li Jia ..














and i still do..........