Sometimes i wonder how...

Sometimes i wonder what you are thinking now..
Sometimes i wonder how you are feeling now..
Sometimes i wonder why it's like this now.
Sometimes i wonder .. Sometimes i wonder...

I know you as a very faithful person, that's true.

I think i have tried hard enough, many different ways, it's true. But the fairy dust still lies in you. The decision at the end of the day is still yours. And i roughly know what you have made up. Well, hard enough i tried, it's time to take a break of all these troubles. Left with all the happy memories with no regrets.

People do ask, it's 2nd of Dec soon, are you going to try? Yes, no harm trying. But from the way i look at it, things i heard, it's better that i do not.. We haven't even seen each other for a long time, and we don't text at all...

All the happy memories left inside me, my life you have brightened up for me. It's never easy to forget and i remember every single event that happened. EVERY. Going into a new relationship for me might just prove to be the masterstroke to forget everything, how easily said.

It will never be easy, be it 10years, 20years, 30years later, i will still remember: what a wonderful darling i had when i was 16. Even though my days are empty now, the nights are long, but what can i do ? Well...

This incident has left me with a permanent scar behind; a deep one, one that i will never forget.. One has to note that when you start a relationship, it will end eventually. A divorce requires 2 parties to continue the proceedings. Similarly, a relationship requires 2 people to start, and 2 people to end it. Argue that you have never agreed to a break-up, argue that you have never said you wanted to break-up, but i have learned that when one party does not want to carry on, it's all but OVER. faithful you might have been, loving you might have been, but at the end of the day, the decision still lies there, though TECHNICALLY you are still together.

It hurts to see things that you do with someone else, the things you did together. it's true. it applies for everyone.

Well, i'm just treating as i'm talking rubbish.. IF it makes sense, thank you. IF it dosen't, well, then it dosen't lor.