'Meaningless' for Joshua

MEANINGLESS messages from Joshua to Cheryl.

When was the last time this happened?

But, this is an indication of the state Joshua is in now.

Trying to win her back virtually a lost cause, N-level results to be in a mess, op still in a mess pending; there's only some pride left to salvage if i make it all the way, despite feeling all the hurt and ruins for so long already.

If it hasn't hit yet, the true measure of Joshua's humiliation in Love will hit home when he cries and moans every night to bed.

Joshua has only a lonely christmas night to look forward to. That will not help Joshua in his confidence and in the future. Joshua does not know how he is going to approach it.

Joshua is in a position where he cannot change what has happened, and the situation he finds himself in..

Joshua says, '' Yes, i am regretting the wrong things i have done which caused things to turn out today, saying things which i should have said long ago, hoping that it is never too late.. At least i can try harder in my next lifetime if i'm still human, to give myself something to be happy about.''

Even that might not be enough now..



Why didn't you try your best when you had the chance to, Joshua?

DEAR JOSHUA,
It was yes another disappointing day for you. I don't know if there was something wrong with you, but from the very start, i could feel that you didn't even give your all, did you?
It was totally Cheryl, Cheryl, Cheryl. She put in more effort than you right from the start. And your efforts ONLY intensified when she said those two words. Isn't that too late already, Joshua?

Compare your motivation and dedication now to a few months back - you were definitely more motivated and dedicated. But even that might not be enough now.

Is it because you think that she still loves you?

This can only mean one thing : If you had not done what you did earlier, my dear Joshua, you wouldn't have kissed the one you love goodbye.

Buck up Joshua !


Let me be somewhere in your heart... ):